#i loved you

I see the way you two talk

and I know what’s happening

because it happened to you and me 

a long time ago I was your first choice

Do you remember that night?

The one with the party?

The one where you took my hand?

The one where we ran away from the others?

In your arms I was the happiest

I have been for long

how could I have known

my happy place will hurt me so bad

I never really liked my hometown

but after you

I hated it

I want to run away and never come back

How could I let myself fall

for you so fast

like a glass my heart fell into your hands

but you didn’t catch it

and it shattered on the ground

 I ran into you unintentionally today

your eyes met mine

and my knees got weak

but I carried on with my work

like I never knew you

Is it worth my pain

to give you the time

to make up your mind

what if your final decision 

hurts more than being uncertain

Deep down we both knew

that we were not forever

You came in my life like a wrecking ball

unexpected and fast

for a moment I thought

you could be the one

but you were a wrecking ball

destroying the building

that was my life

and the furniture inside

that were my heart and feelings

I can smell your scent

wherever I go

but when I think about you

I can’t even remember how your hand felt in mine 

I should have realized it sooner

from the start I should have known

that it was all just a game to you

Why did it take so long

for me to realize

that everything that happened

ruined me

The high I got from you

from your smile and your touch

I get it from different places now

Sometimes my mind makes me crazy

trying to tell me that I did something wrong

but I know I did everything right

I cared for you

and you still left